January 04, 2006

From actress to audience

I miss my students. Honestly, I miss the work, the colleagues and to a certain degree, the workplace too.

I wake up typically, around 9am and one of my first few thoughts would be 'it's almost recess time'. I laze around in bed, thinking of what I would be doing today, for an hour or so. I drag myself out of bed, having decided on what I would have for breakfast. Then, I watch TV while eating. Some time here, I think 'it's nearing 1 o'clock (dismissal time in school)'. I can almost share the sigh of relief as students get packed into school vans that will bring them back to their helpers or parents at home. I watch more TV and then, the afternoon news till around 1.30pm, 2pm if there's something nice on Discovery Channel. And I think 'lesson plans and marking of books followed by knock off at 3.30pm'.

I picture in my mind what I would be doing if I were still on my last job. Images running in my mind, parallel to whatever would be showing on Discovery or Hallmark. It feels like being removed from a scene, where I used to be involved as an actress, and being put in the audience seat. I can identify with the scene and the images. But, only from my position now as an audience. Feels slightly odd.

Nevertheless, I'm not complaining of my state of non-movement and low-productivity now. But, I do need to start looking in papers and finding something to do. My Dad's nag is my biggest motivation. It hasn't started. He's still relatively happy to see me at home cos I can help with his errands. But, man... my experience tells me this won't last. hehe

Posted by 杏 cy （Jancy） at 14:17